How do I explain what is going through my head right now? Everyone knows it has been a tough year for me. I’ve spent most of the year in Las Vegas taking care of my family, and I have been miserable, tired, angry, and sad. This last go around I toyed with the idea of moving back to make things easier, so I have been thinking and researching and trying to figure a few things out. In doing all of this I realized how lost I have been, even before my dad started having major health problems. This past year I have applied for endless jobs in Salt lake city….more than many of you know of, and nothing ever pans out. I thought if I found a decent job I would be happy. I thought if I found a nice place to live and surrounded myself with lots of people and things to do, this annoying part of me that is restless would calm down. Truth is, I am tired of trying to change who I really am. But to be really honest, I didn’t figure things out till recently. All this talk of moving sparked something in me. It is hard to explain. It is like everything finally clicked into place.
I am not happy staying in one place. I’ve always wanted to travel, and have nearly gone on assignment quite a few times. But it has never been the right time or place, so I am taking things into my own hands. I am a wanderer, and I won’t be happy until I experience new places and adventures. I am happiest when I am on the road or in an airport. Right now, I am not prepared to take off, so I have come up with a plan, a compromise of sorts. I am going to move to a new state and take a few years to sort a few things out, like finances and education. I have more schooling I would like to do as well. I realize I am not happy without a book in my hand either. I like to learn. This compromise works out pretty well. I am moving somewhere new to me….there is my adventure. I am moving somewhere where I can continue my education. And I am moving somewhere where the demand for ultrasound techs is fairly high, so that I can make some money and stow some away for my travels.
Now don’t panic. I am moving, but I have a lot of loose ends and responsibilities I need to work out before I really get serious about this. It is going to take me at least 6 months to get things worked out. Unless the right job opportunity comes up, then I would speed up the process. But I am trying to take this slow and really feel this out before I leap. All to often, I just leap. Not that that is a bad thing. I always have fun, even with the disasters. But this is different, I want success. Anyways, now I am just babbling. This is just the beginning of things. I’ll write more when I can put it into words better.
Oh…where am I moving to?….I dunno yet. I have a few ideas, but nothing solid yet. Let’s just say a few states are in the running. *cough*washingtonoregoncoloradocaliforniaarizona*cough* Just a few. ; )