I am weak, those sad puppy dog eyes are just too much for me and I let my dogs rule the house. My family has always teased me about my way with animals, dogs mostly seem to just love me, but other animals react differently around me as well. I figured this out when I worked in pet store just after high school, and it is how I can have a tank full of fish that have lived 5 plus years. My fish Elvis was almost 10 years old, or close to that. Anyways, I have let my dogs take control because I cannot handle those sad puppy dog eyes. They will not go anywhere in the house without me, and they will bug the crap out of me if they feel like exploring. And don’t even get me started on our sleeping arrangements. Boo thinks it is good fun to pull the covers down in the middle of the night and get under them, and then steal the whole blanket all together. He’s a crazy fun little guy, but being poked by his nose throughout the night can get a little tiresome. *sigh* and today I wanted to call in sick when they gave me their sad eyes. I am such a sucker. But I stayed strong and didn’t give in.
Sci Fi/Fantasy Geek September 4, 2009
And proud of it. I have gone sci fi mad. I mostly like urban fantasy, but any sci fi/fantasy book, TV show, or movie will catch my eye. So I was having a hard time sleeping the last couple of nights and started watching Terminator, the Sarah Connor Chronicles. After watching both seasons, I realized the show has been canceled…gah! Now I will never have an ending to it all. Why is it that sci fi gets such a hard rep? So many sci fi shows get canceled early on, and the movies get bad reviews. People need to learn how to think outside of the box. It is sad that such creativity is pushed down and pops up the most insane reality tv shows that I have a feeling are somewhat scripted. What crap!!*sigh* I miss Firefly and I am bummed that I don’t get to see the end of the terminator series. Hopefully the fall has some good surprises in store. I really hope.
fridays and headaches September 4, 2009
Seems to be a new routine for me. My work schedule for September is insane, but I kinda expected it. For some reason September is always a crazy work month for me. Lately I’ve been kinda down on work though. When you work twelve hour shift in a hospital, in Las Vegas, in the summer when the air conditioner is broken, you kinda lose your fondness for the place. And now today new rules about flu shots have been handed down. It has always been optional, but strongly encouraged to get a flu shot. Now there is no politeness about it. It is either you get the flu shot, or you wear a mask your entire shift. Ha…Guess who is investing in her own box of masks? *raises hand* I have never gotten a flu shot, and don’t want to, even in the environment I work in. Hmm, this is an interesting turn of events. The only thing I like about Las Vegas is my job, but now health care is going through some changes and the hospitals are being hit pretty hard. This is food for thought for me. I didn’t think I would ever go back to an outpatient clinic, but I am considering it now…especially since I am looking into moving to Washington or Oregon. My hold on Vegas is slipping. I just hope I find a really good clinic to work in. I need a good work environment. Home life is hard enough.
The question that is hitting me the hardest though is…
Am I being selfish moving my family away from Las Vegas? I am the financial bread winner for my father and brother, and a bit for my niece too. They will all follow me where ever I move to. Is it wrong for me to move them too?
Answer: I just don’t know.
audiobook/ Ipod madness August 9, 2009
I don’t have access to a swimming pool, I don’t gamble or drink, and there isn’t much community stuff in Vegas… it is too transient a town. So when it is sweltering hot outside, there isn’t much to do. I’ve been reading and listening to audio books like crazy. I feel like I have been stuck in my own head for months. Not that I don’t love audio books, I am just ready for the summer to be over so I can find some outdoor activities. There is a basin I love to walk around, but the heat is too much for me. Heat exhaustion is not something I want to get reacquainted with while I am living in Las Vegas again. On a good note, I think I have talked myself into writing a book. I have sketched out a few ideas. It’s gonna be not exactly fluff, but simple and on the sci fi/ fantasy lines. More urban or paranormal fantasy. I love things that go bump in the night, and I was great at telling scary ghost stories around the camp fires and sleep overs. So I’m gonna give writing a go again. Might as well since summer isn’t quite over yet. Let’s see if this crazy idea of mine actually goes anywhere…who knows, but at least it will be interesting.
Evil plots to rule the world June 15, 2009
I was working on bills last night, and besides having an absurdly high power bill, I am certain the cable bill is part of an evil plot to rule the world. It doesn’t matter if you go with your local cable company or some other independent company, or even with satellite. The result is the same, you sign your life away practically. Or at least all your money and possibly your first born child. Some man is behind this evil plot, and the writers strike was one of his first moves to let us know how much TV can suck and that someone is the puppet master when it comes to entertainment. Some people may say big deal, it is just TV, but life is stressful and entertainment is essential in trudging through the rough times. Sometimes you just need to laugh, cry,or yell at a stupid box. Yelling at my books just isn’t the same, and I’ve read over a hundred books this past year. Don’t ya just love insomnia. Anyways, some evil man is behind all this. I say some man because I am a 31 year old single female, it is my duty to think every man is evil until a man proves me wrong. Geesh! Thank goodness for the Internet, I don’t know what I would do without it. Obviously a women invented it because we all know where we go to ask for directions…the Internet, and men don’t ask for directions.
slacking on writing again…geesh May 30, 2009
It has been ages since I have blogged. I’m not even sure what I can say really. My life has been work, books, and taking care of family. Couch brother finally moved to San Fransisco a couple of weeks ago, and my dad finally got out of the hospital and moved into my house. It’s kind of weird. If I hadn’t moved back to Las Vegas some of my family would have been out on the street. I am paying rent on a nice little 3 bedroom house with a decent sized backyard. My niece, little brother, and now my dad are all living with me. Crazy, I know. But we make it work because it is all we can do for right now. I have ownership of my dogs again, and they make sure everyone knows that I am their pet. It is sad when I work the graveyard shift they keep everyone up all night until I come home. I love the silly little buggers. Not much else to say. Life in Las Vegas again is sad, lonely, and tough, but I am making due for now. And I hope I survive the summer. It is freakin HOT!!
Don’t you hate it when… April 5, 2009
Your alarm doesn’t go off and you wake up the exact minute you are supposed to start work. Luckily I didn’t sleep longer, the ER would have been pissed at me. I had 2 stat exams waiting for me when I walked in, if they had to wait any longer I would have been in trouble.
*sigh* I blame this on couch brother. My 33 year old brother got kicked out of his place last month and asked if he could crash on my couch for a little while. That was a month ago!! I would like my couch back. I’ve been hinting and hinting and hinting…not so subtle either. Now I am thinking I should invent an eject button for my couch. Or I could sell it, and have no couch at all for him to crash on. It’s not that I don’t love him, I do, but he is a pig. My living room smells so bad the dogs won’t even go out there. He never cleans, he sleeps odd hours, and we have already had an altercation between brothers because couch brother brought over drunk people to MY house. And when I tell him no, he plays the victim and says I am a mean person. Yeah, couch brother needs to go. Maybe I can accidentally set the couch on fire.
*break out the marshmallows*
just getting by March 31, 2009
Sometimes things are so bad, that all you can do is just hang on and get by. There is no sugar coating my life right now. It is rough. I feel as if I have the weight of the world on my shoulders sometimes. I miss my mother. She was my best friend. Saturdays are the worst, because that is the day she would call and ask my weekend plans. We talked more than that of course. She had a knack for weather, and I would call her all the time for the forecast. I miss that, I miss talking to her. She would listen and let me reason things out on my own. I never realized how much I needed that. I miss my father too, and he is finally on the mend after almost 2 months in the hospital. This week is the first time he is breathing on his own. And he can talk now too. I am relieved , I was not quite prepared to lose him too but it came really close quite a few times. Now I just take it day by day. I have become a bit of a cry baby, but the pressure is so intense something was bound to happen. If I make it through this year without losing my mind, it will be an ok year.
I do have a plan in the works. I am taking a week vacation and will not tell anyone where I am going or how to reach me. One whole week with no one to take care of. That sounds like heaven to me.
Vegas girl once again March 19, 2009
I have moved back to Las Vegas in the midst of a major family crisis. It has been rough. I miss my mom, and my dad is still in critical condition. He has been in the hospital for over a month and still has a machine breathing for him. He is doing better this week, but he goes back and forth a lot. It has been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. I’m not gonna go into all the details. The more I think about all the stuff going on the harder it is for me. I am trying to do one thing at a time, and not stress out. Luckily I am getting plenty of work, so that is one thing I need not worry about. I made a good choice moving back for that reason alone. But I must admit, it is nice to have siblings to rely on again as well. I talk to my sister more now than I ever have in my life. It’s nice to see our relationship grow. I guess what is helping me right now is realizing good things can come out of bad situations. I am trying to focus on the positives.
In Loving Memory February 22, 2009
Of my wonderful mother, JoAn Lee Arnold. Born July 2, 1937…died February 20, 2009.
I miss her terribly.
