I was working on bills last night, and besides having an absurdly high power bill, I am certain the cable bill is part of an evil plot to rule the world. It doesn’t matter if you go with your local cable company or some other independent company, or even with satellite. The result is the same, you sign your life away practically. Or at least all your money and possibly your first born child. Some man is behind this evil plot, and the writers strike was one of his first moves to let us know how much TV can suck and that someone is the puppet master when it comes to entertainment. Some people may say big deal, it is just TV, but life is stressful and entertainment is essential in trudging through the rough times. Sometimes you just need to laugh, cry,or yell at a stupid box. Yelling at my books just isn’t the same, and I’ve read over a hundred books this past year. Don’t ya just love insomnia. Anyways, some evil man is behind all this. I say some man because I am a 31 year old single female, it is my duty to think every man is evil until a man proves me wrong. Geesh! Thank goodness for the Internet, I don’t know what I would do without it. Obviously a women invented it because we all know where we go to ask for directions…the Internet, and men don’t ask for directions.
slacking on writing again…geesh May 30, 2009
It has been ages since I have blogged. I’m not even sure what I can say really. My life has been work, books, and taking care of family. Couch brother finally moved to San Fransisco a couple of weeks ago, and my dad finally got out of the hospital and moved into my house. It’s kind of weird. If I hadn’t moved back to Las Vegas some of my family would have been out on the street. I am paying rent on a nice little 3 bedroom house with a decent sized backyard. My niece, little brother, and now my dad are all living with me. Crazy, I know. But we make it work because it is all we can do for right now. I have ownership of my dogs again, and they make sure everyone knows that I am their pet. It is sad when I work the graveyard shift they keep everyone up all night until I come home. I love the silly little buggers. Not much else to say. Life in Las Vegas again is sad, lonely, and tough, but I am making due for now. And I hope I survive the summer. It is freakin HOT!!
Don’t you hate it when… April 5, 2009
Your alarm doesn’t go off and you wake up the exact minute you are supposed to start work. Luckily I didn’t sleep longer, the ER would have been pissed at me. I had 2 stat exams waiting for me when I walked in, if they had to wait any longer I would have been in trouble.
*sigh* I blame this on couch brother. My 33 year old brother got kicked out of his place last month and asked if he could crash on my couch for a little while. That was a month ago!! I would like my couch back. I’ve been hinting and hinting and hinting…not so subtle either. Now I am thinking I should invent an eject button for my couch. Or I could sell it, and have no couch at all for him to crash on. It’s not that I don’t love him, I do, but he is a pig. My living room smells so bad the dogs won’t even go out there. He never cleans, he sleeps odd hours, and we have already had an altercation between brothers because couch brother brought over drunk people to MY house. And when I tell him no, he plays the victim and says I am a mean person. Yeah, couch brother needs to go. Maybe I can accidentally set the couch on fire.
*break out the marshmallows*
just getting by March 31, 2009
Sometimes things are so bad, that all you can do is just hang on and get by. There is no sugar coating my life right now. It is rough. I feel as if I have the weight of the world on my shoulders sometimes. I miss my mother. She was my best friend. Saturdays are the worst, because that is the day she would call and ask my weekend plans. We talked more than that of course. She had a knack for weather, and I would call her all the time for the forecast. I miss that, I miss talking to her. She would listen and let me reason things out on my own. I never realized how much I needed that. I miss my father too, and he is finally on the mend after almost 2 months in the hospital. This week is the first time he is breathing on his own. And he can talk now too. I am relieved , I was not quite prepared to lose him too but it came really close quite a few times. Now I just take it day by day. I have become a bit of a cry baby, but the pressure is so intense something was bound to happen. If I make it through this year without losing my mind, it will be an ok year.
I do have a plan in the works. I am taking a week vacation and will not tell anyone where I am going or how to reach me. One whole week with no one to take care of. That sounds like heaven to me.
Vegas girl once again March 19, 2009
I have moved back to Las Vegas in the midst of a major family crisis. It has been rough. I miss my mom, and my dad is still in critical condition. He has been in the hospital for over a month and still has a machine breathing for him. He is doing better this week, but he goes back and forth a lot. It has been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. I’m not gonna go into all the details. The more I think about all the stuff going on the harder it is for me. I am trying to do one thing at a time, and not stress out. Luckily I am getting plenty of work, so that is one thing I need not worry about. I made a good choice moving back for that reason alone. But I must admit, it is nice to have siblings to rely on again as well. I talk to my sister more now than I ever have in my life. It’s nice to see our relationship grow. I guess what is helping me right now is realizing good things can come out of bad situations. I am trying to focus on the positives.
In Loving Memory February 22, 2009
Of my wonderful mother, JoAn Lee Arnold. Born July 2, 1937…died February 20, 2009.
I miss her terribly.
no sleep for the weary February 5, 2009
Stress is always a part of my life. Working in a hospital is high stress, and I have learned how to deal with it. I try not to worry too much and take the punches as they come. That’s always been a good formula for me, but lately, not so much. Insomnia has always been my constant companion, but lately it is the overbearing aunt or cousin. I want it to go away, but there isn’t much I can do about it. I guess this just a wave I am gonna have to surf for awhile.
On a good note, I think I found a house down in Las Vegas today. I’m going to rent it, but it is a cracker jack of a deal. I’m excited, but I won’t be able to relax until I sign the lease. But still….It’s a cute little house, gated community, 3 bed 2.5 bath with a loft, 2 car garage, desert landscape. And the icing on the cake…..just down the street from my hospital and my family. This will be good for me. I am ready for a change……even though Vegas is getting hot already. Ugh!
It’s official January 29, 2009
I am moving back to Las Vegas February 28th. Am I happy about it? Yes and no. There are a great many things and people I will miss in Utah. But it is time to own up to the fact that my career up here is dead. There is no opportunity for me and no room for growth. I wish I were moving somewhere other than Las Vegas, but this will have to do for now. It will give me a chance to figure a few things out and rest a bit. I am exhausted from all of the back and forth, and family emergencies. I talked to my niece about it, and she is moving with me. There are better opportunities for us both if we go back. I am sad, but I know I need this change, even if it isn’t what I planned on. So on to a new adventure I go!
new year, new plans January 16, 2009
I can be stubborn, and I am a bit of a fighter…that’s the brat in me I guess. So after a very difficult year, I am rethinking most of my plans. At first I felt as if I was giving up, but today I feel a little different. I think I need a new approach. I’ve been looking for travel jobs and perm jobs in Utah and a few other states I wouldn’t mind moving to. All the while I still work in Las Vegas and have been spending more and more time down there because of family stuff. I don’t want to move back there and have been fighting that for a long time. I am not changing my mind on that, but am thinking maybe moving back temporarily wouldn’t be a bad idea. The pros… It would give me time to regroup instead of always being on the road. I could find extra work and pay off some debt. I would be closer to family and able to help more. I could bring my niece with me and she may be happier. I could pull off a travel job off with less of a headache. The cons….I would be sucked back into Las Vegas again. Continuing education would be tricky. I would be near family, hence, no break from the craziness. And it is dang hot in summer.
Not an easy decision, and I need to talk to my niece about it. She had to take a break this semester because of funding problems, so if we were to make a change now would be the time. Hmmm….lots to think about.
Oh, and I am thinking about changing up my blog. Possibly even websites. I have a new camera and new ideas, and I want to write a whole lot more. Just a thought.
Well.. January 5, 2009
I thought that I wouldn’t write in my blog until something interesting had happened, or something good. Uh, that just means slacking on writing. Although not much is going on. The holidays were ok. My dad ended up in the hospital again, but this time with pneumonia. So that really sucked. And I just worked. I really needed the hours because census is down in the hospitals in Vegas, so hours are being cut big time. Where does that leave me? In desperate need of another job. So I am applying for jobs in other states. So far I’ve applied for a couple of jobs near Seattle, Washington. And I am working on a travel job as well. I hope something works out soon. I’ve never had this much work cut in Las Vegas. It is a bit scary. I just hope a door opens for me somewhere, and soon. I need it.
